I do have a sentimental side… A side I have been introducing
through my blog posts. Somehow people think I am still keeping an even deeper
side…probably a lonelier side.
I hover past people usually with a smile. My aura, as one of
my friends said, is almost always positive. I like it that way. But for this
very reason, people think I’m shallow, and I’m taking life a little too
lightly. There are others however, who are convinced that I am keeping it all
hidden within me. They think I have walled up my insecurities, never to be
noticed by anyone- which is why my friends continue digging deeper.
To confirm, I am a living human. I may have taken an oblong-shaped,
yellow-skinned angel form, but I’m still human at heart. I DO have my fears, my
insecurities, my secrets, my regrets. The only reason I’m positive is because I
try not to let them consume me. I also believe these “deeper” parts of me are
better unexplored, for I don’t think people would understand…or care.
I live everyday with a smile. If I ever bury something in
the past, it’s because I would like to move on. Whenever I bury, I make sure I
use it as another start-off point, or a stepping stone…or a launch pad. I guess
I’m just not used to having my stepping stones dug. But that’s something I
could learn. J
And to those who worry, don’t. I’m only changing my habits
for exploring purposes. What good is a stepping stone that wouldn’t allow you to
go to someplace new? What is the past for, if not for the future?
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