Scared-that I may have not given enough. Yes, simply because I failed my Statistics midterm, I think everything I did this semester is wrong. Wrong enough to get very, very low grades. Okay, so I guess I'll just pray to get what I deserve. I hope I don't get anything lower than a 2.5. That's the limit...my personal limit. Bring it on. Give me all the low grades I believe I deserve. But don't make them lower than 2.5
Grade-conscious you say? Well, yes. I have always been like this. There are times when I forget this attitude, which causes me to receive marks I never liked seeing. But I do motivate myself enough to-you know-keep myself "grade-conscious". Because I have this ability to get lazy all I want. I could care very little about something if I am not properly motivated. And to feed my hunger for good grades, I must keep inspired.
I am excited... to see the semester end. To see the fruits of my labor. I did do my best. It is just that my vision is blurred every time I remember my Statistics. I have failed in a math subject before. And the last thing I want is to repeat one. I ONLY WANT TO PASS. I have done my part, and I believe I don't deserve to fail, even though my professor conveniently assured the class that he would gladly fail people. Oh, I wish he'd grow himself a heart.
I will continue to be on this state of fear and excitement until I get a good score on the next Statistics activity. It is not yet too late. I can still boost myself up and away from danger. I want to celebrate the semestral break...and not spend it lamenting on a single subject.
You can do it Ark! You have survived something like this before...it is only a bigger foe you are faced with. And wit your strength, you can triumph again. Just...get ready for anything.
Sorry reader, for being too self-centered on this topic I just needed to remind myself to relax and not be too paranoid. Grades don't dictate anybody's life anyway. Breathe, Ark. Breathe.
Found this link: http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/AHZWm4/:MuA0z7_-:c@@cI+9L/make-everything-ok.com/
...and it made everything okay! It is quite cool. :)
awesome link is awesome. :D Oh, SharkSon, we're the same. I have also failed a math subject before. And I refuse to let it happen again. we'll get through this semester with passing grades. I know we will. Cheers! :3
ReplyDeleteOh yes. And afterwards we can kill our prof. Bwahahaha. Evil shark is evil. >:D
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