Today was a happy day.
Okay I know it may sound a bit common for an introduction,
but this is how I should start this particular post. It WAS a happy day. I’m
starting to doubt the rest of it though.
I guess I’m just sad about something I found out. Although I
have nothing against this idea, I can’t help but doubt why it all happened.
And because I can’t explain this feeling, I will simply tell
you why I entitled this post as such.
Remember my post some time ago? The one about my novel?
Well, I posted there that I was planning a novel because I was so inspired. But
now what I feared (and expected) has already occurred, and I’ve run out of
inspiration.
…for the novel, of course. I am always inspired to do other
things. But for this novel, I have drained it all. My attention span is too
short for a plan so big. It’s something I regret, for the novel would have been
epic. See, that’s the thing about me: when I get inspired, I do everything it
takes to fulfill it. But once a story inspiration has disappeared, I cease all
operation.
On my study table there is a certain folder of crushed
dreams…my dreams of ever completing a story. Very rare was the instance when I
mustered enough courage and determination to finish one. I HAVE finished a
story once. It was a big achievement for I have proved to myself that I am
capable of doing such feat. It was not easy too. I am proud because of that
work. Someday you might be reading it in class (no, not really. I do not dream
that for my work. I dream something bigger for it).
But once again, after finishing this novel plan, I have lost
my interest in it. It was simply too boring for me. Maybe someday I can create
something spectacular. But that time is not now…not with that story plan.
On my study table lays a folder of unfinished masterpieces.
Works that if given enough attention would probably become classics. The
unfortunate part is that they were created by me. And with that they bear the
curse…an eternal banishment to the rarely visited folder. Come to think of it,
I never open that folder anymore.
Okay next time, I’ll try my best. Next time, I will not let
good ideas go to waste. They will never again sink down the drain…as long as
they keep me inspired.
On another note: I congratulate myself for making this blog
with Dev. These ideas are always easy to post. As the inspiration strikes, the
blog absorbs it. This is one creation I will probably never get tired of. That’s
a possibility even I can assure.
If you're interested how this all started, here's "A Novel"...
