"The Main Character" by ARK

I don’t like being the main character in anything, because I never wanted that much responsibility…until I realized I’m not the main character in my own story.

When watching movies, I wouldn’t focus much on the main character. The world revolves around the protagonist, so why pay more attention to him? To me, the ones who really mattered are those who played littler roles, but somehow affected the story in a larger way. The minor characters attracted me more. Sometimes, I’d even salute the villains for doing such a great job at ruining the star’s life. Major characters would always win, but he couldn’t do that without his friends. 

When playing video games, I wouldn’t choose the main character, because to me, that character would be the most boring one. Surely a lot of people would use that character, and therefore would make that person common. When playing video games I would choose the weirdest person in the selection. Then I would excel in using that character, and finally make him seem significant. Main characters are powerful, but the unexplored abilities of the others are more appealing to me.

I guess I just want to be different from others most of the time. And the ignored state of the minor characters often gives me that advantage. I AM a minor character, and for that I am unique.

But then I saw myself and realized: I’m not the main character of my own life. In my perspective, I’ve always been the friend, the sibling, the son, the relative of some other bigger personality. I’ve never viewed myself as important as those around me. Most of the time, what they do is fine by me. After all, it’s their story-not mine.

I realized that I have my own life. In this story, I’m in control. I’m the main character, and I couldn’t escape that. It’s an intimidating, yet liberating truth. I can do whatever I want with my life, for my story not only revolves around the people I support, but also myself. I should stop thinking of what other people think of me, and start caring more about who I think I am. Thing is, it’s my life.

This is a good realization. I should be more selfish, instead of shying away from every opportunity that goes my way-not that I have ever let a good opportunity pass-I always grab at them. My point is I should start seeing myself as important as those people I care about. Not only that, continue to be a minor character in their lives. I’m going to be the best minor character in their lives-boosting them up until they reach their happy endings…WHILE boosting myself up too.

What is my story? I’m going to continue this now, because I have a story to finish. The story of my life isn’t gonna finish itself.