This year (2012), I learned...
1. How to blog.
-> to start this list, I must acknowledge the reason why I am doing this: because I have started a blog this year. And so far Dev and I, as well as the Guests are doing a wonderful job. I promise to keep this up.
2. How to keep quiet.
-> there are things that shouldn't be said. Not that I regret anything I've spoken about, it's just that sometimes it's better to keep hold of what you know instead of giving it away. I have given this a start, and I will keep practicing my silence.
3. How to keep promises.
-> I noticed my tendency to do the opposite of what I have promised. And I am hard at work on fixing that. I will try better to keep my promises. Also, I am practicing how NOT to give away promises I can't keep.
4. How to dream properly.
-> I've always been a dreamer. And sometimes I get delusional. But I know I have a plan to back all of my dreams up, and so I don't think they are as far away as they seem. This year I learned how to dream and set goals properly. I also learned what to do while waiting for your dreams to come true...that is, to not wait at all.
5. That I am not that vulnerable.
-> I have my strengths. Strengths that other people see, and acknowledge...strengths I didn't know were there. I've witnessed these strengths and started seeing myself differently. I promise never again to do something out of sheer self-doubt.
6. That the world is selfish.
-> It's ALL about me after all. Nobody is using a camera to keep track of my life...except for me. This is a movie for me to watch. Nobody cares how I direct my life 'cause they're all too busy directing theirs. It's time to stop watching everybody and start living a life worth watching. I promise to give myself one hell of a show.
7. That there is such a thing as unconditional love.
-> Love doesn't always have to be romantic. It comes in all shapes and forms. Back then I didn't believe people would do things out of sheer love. I didn't believe that people would do things for others without having anything in it for them. Now I have seen people show genuine care, and I'm glad to say that the people around me are not robots.
8. That no one's gonna give me the world.
-> If I want the world, I better start taking it.
9. How not to care.
-> I couldn't be more careless. I couldn't be more emotionally detached. But now I know how to properly detach myself and just exactly WHO to leave. Now that MY world is all about me, I should stop worrying that people are gonna leave me.
10. How to stop torturing myself.
-> I promise to keep this up. If I'm ever going to reach my dreams, I'm gonna have to stop inflicting pain onto myself. 'cause I know there are people who would be more than happy to do it for me. I shouldn't be helping them.
11. How to keep myself within myself.
-> This means that whatever lesson comes my way, I am confident that I will never lose who I am. I should just keep integrating rather than renovating. Change is good, I know--it must be embraced. But losing myself is the last thing I want.
As you may have noticed, these lessons are all selfish and self-absorbed. But those are the things that my year has taught to me. 2012 was full of lessons about the good kind of selfishness. It's called self-respect. :)
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