I have done a lot of nice things this year, and I can say I am on the right track. But I don't think Santa is gonna be heading my way this year. I don't know why, but even the Christmas songs, and the brilliant lights have no effect on me.
Pardon me if I am ruining the Christmas spirit for you. If you feel the air of joy during this holiday and want to keep it that way, please stop reading this. I don't want to steal your Christmas.
Now I have probably mentioned before my guesses, as to why I don't feel the usual happiness that Christmas normally brings to me. My favorite holiday is not working it's magic this year because...
1. I already got what I wanted. I have been so blessed this year, that I think Santa has been dropping off gifts too early. And now I have what I want, Santa is giving me time to enjoy it. In that case, I'm not complaining. It's been Christmas for me, all year long, and I should just be thankful. I am.
2. I AM growing old. The holidays probably don't appeal much to me anymore. But Christmas will forever be my favorite. Because 'tis the season to be jolly. (tralalala?)
3. I already know who my secret Santa is. Yes, unfortunately my classmate shouted aloud that he picked my name on the bowl. And to make it worse, I actually saw him holding my name. That's it. My last hope at a meaningful Christmas is over.
Or is it? I have been planning to do something special before this year ended. I am not sure what it is, but I'll do it when I feel it is right. With some magic, maybe a Christmas miracle would happen. I shall do something to lift somebody else's Christmas spirit. Yes, maybe I won't be selfish this year. Maybe I'll give back to those who've been giving. Again I'm not sure. But since Christmas is practically over for me, I will make it the best Christmas for somebody else instead. :)
Any ideas?
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